Isaiah 43: 18-19

 "Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the desert and streams in the wasteland."

~Isaiah 43:18-19

     Lately it seems as if everyone has been renewed, but not me. I been thinking a lot about this. What has everyone found that I haven't? Do I feel defeated and overwhelmed because life has been throwing us some curve balls these days? What is that old saying? "Life is 10 percent what happens to you and 90 percent how you respond to it." I haven't been responding the way I should. I have not been the best version of myself. I have not been the best wife, mother, teacher, friend. I need a change. 

     I've been asking around. Talking to folks. Listening. 

     What I've heard is focus, guidance, determination, positivity, prayer. Prayer? Yes, prayer. Is this it? The missing ingredient? Honestly, I've tried everything else... well I've half tried everything else. Last night I prayed. Not the same prayer I pray over my son's head as he lays downs to sleep each night. Not the random, infrequent blips of a prayer I sometimes send up. This time I prayed honestly and humbly. Lord, I need guidance. I need you. Today in one of my emails are the verses from Isaiah. Do not dwell on the past. Do something new. So, okay, the past was less than glamorous. Forget about it. I'm going to try again and this time, I'm going to ask for guidance. 

     So here I am. Trying my hand at this blogging thing, again. I deleted all the old blogs and posts. They are the past. I'm starting fresh. I have some goals in mind. There are some things I like to see happen in my life. I plan to share them with you, eventually. For now, for tonight, I'm just letting go of the past, my mistakes, my insecurities. Tomorrow is a new day! It's time to find a new song!

What am I reading? The Family Reading Bible